Well, I've finally finished out my life-long dream of moving to NYC and pursuing my career in fashion. Cliche, I know, and what's worse is the painful truth I've come to realize is paired with this kind of life. From the outside looking in it seems lavish; All the parties (VIP of course), a rent-free loft with an amazing view and to put it simply (aside from my regular modeling work), I make money by looking pretty at clubs and events.I wanted to be a part of this life for so long and now that I have it, I'm not sure what to do with it.
When I'm not working or going to events, I realize how alone I actually am. I'm successful in my career and I've made all of these selfish decisions to get me here and now I get to enjoy it by myself. I've become the person I hate but at the same time, I know I need this life. I've never lived a life of simplicity and I know that that isn't what I want either.
I guess this is growing up.
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